A Trek?

The word "trek", by definition, suggests a long, difficult journey that someone has taken up on ourselves. Most times, when a trek is mentioned, people are talking about some physical journey. Our ancestors have trekked  across oceans, mountains, plains and more to bring us access to more and more places in the world. In the future, our descendents will go on further treks and adventures as they carve out new places for humankind among the stars.

Not every trek, however, has to be physical.

My life is average. I am average. I am nothing special. I am not famous, or Hollywood beautiful, or important. There seems to be nothing unique in my life to distinguish me from someone else, and there hasn't been.

I know I am far from the first person to have suffered pain to my very core as I examine my life. I know my situation is far from the worst when we look around during at the injustices that plague our world. I'm probably the least qualified person to begin writing a blog like this, as my story doesn't have elements of interest see tragedy that I am set to overcome.

So why bother? Why am I writing this? Why am I putting myself out there, something I try to avoid like the plague?

Simple answer: I am determined to walk this path healing. While many would consider this a journey, a trip, a walk at best, to mr, this is going to be beyond difficult. I am setting myself up to hopefully overcome years upon years of personal abuse, degradation, hatred, and feelings of worthlessness to find an inner happiness, a personal peace, that I can carry with me through a life I can finally deem worthwhile. It is going to be hard, battling my own demons and confronting the person I despise the most. It's going to be hard going, overcoming all the things I have allowed myself on the path to failure and misery. The journey will be hard and I'll likely fail more often than I succeed, but I am hoping, praying, begging to overcome. Finally.

This is my own trek, my long, difficult journey.